Last night was an especially rough one. I had what seemed like could be early contractions from about 8 p.m. til midnight, which felt like mild period cramps or some other sort of clenching down there. I prayed and tried not to get too excited...but failed. I was SURE it was going to happen. Every time I woke up in the middle of the night, I tried to see if they were longer, stronger, or closer together. After my 4th bathroom trip by 4 a.m. (yikes), they had subsided.
By the time I got up this morning, I was pretty upset. I just want the little one to get here! I'm a generally impatient person, but this whole not-being-able-to-tell-when-it's-gonna-happen thing is driving me a little crazy.
Then I read this piece on Team Whitaker. And it made me think - really think. Life really is good right now, isn't it? As impatient as I may be for the baby to get here, nothing's going to be the same when it happens. I have a good - great - life, and I'm not thankful for it often enough.
I'm going to try and take a step back in these last couple weeks of pregnancy and really appreciate our lives the way they are, right in these moments. I'll probably cave to impatience occasionally, but I really need to look at the bigger picture and how much He is blessing our lives, without me controlling one single bit of them.
Here are some things I am thankful for:
- Nebraska weather. Yesterday it was 60° when I woke up, got up to a new record high of 98° by late afternoon, and then this gorgeous rain and hail storm passed through and lowered the temps again to the 70° range by bedtime
- date nights with David. We got ice cream last night after the storm had subsided, and even though I spilled majorly on my shirt (the belly does get in the way sometimes) it was glorious. We sat on our porch and watched the lightning flash for a half hour, just the two of us, appreciating the beauty of it all
- piles of fresh laundry to fold, and a wonderfully fast and quiet laundry machine system in our own basement (also if you love laundry soap smell get this kind, you will not regret it)
- long walks, even when it's blazing hot
- a good job, filled with people who care about what they do
- apples & cereal bars
- the fun that is planning the future, and how much Pinterest can inspire and help you with that
- the ability to enjoy hilarious TV shows like Parks and Recreation
Sometimes I need a kick in the pants like this to make me step back and see my life for what it is. Thank you, Jesus, for a wonderfully good life.