Cora, three months

Time is literally flying by with this little girlie of ours. I feel like I just wrote her birth story and she's already 3 months old, how is that even possible? I love watching her grow but I'm already missing the details of when she was an itty bitty baby and that mom conundrum of wanting them to grow up and wishing they stayed small is heavy on my heart, most days.

To the stats! (And for reference, Kate at three months!)

Weight: Going to have to home scale this, hold on while I go do that.
Okay little miss is approximately 16 pounds 3 oz! In their faces, she and Kate look similar in weight at 3 months but Cora has lots more rolls & pudge on her frame overall, and she's definitely heavier. I love me a chunky baby, though, certainly not complaining.

Height: No idea. I haven't perfected the at-home method of getting a wiggly baby to stay still long enough to use a regular tape measure with, and she didn't have a 3 month checkup so I don't know. She's long enough that her torso is officially too long for all 3 month clothing, and just snug at the 6 month sizes so I'm buying 9 month & 12 month stuff.

Firsts this month: We've had a very slight, somewhat hesitant laugh out of her when we're making silly faces in front of her or wiggling her little bunny rattle around and making it pop into existence in front of her, but no belly laugh yet. Lots of eye movement, tracking things, lifting head up during tummy time, all that good 3 month old baby jazz! No progress on the rolling-over front yet and she doesn't even seem interested. I'm fine with that, y'all.

Nicknames: nothing new this month! I call her "sweetheart" or "darlin'" a lot, and Kate's started imitating me when she talks to Cora so that is freaking adorable but otherwise not much new.

Other things to note:
+ Eating: she finally decided to space out her feeds in the last couple weeks, which Mama is very very grateful for. Usually she nurses about every 2 hours, sometimes 2.5 hours when she naps for longer stretches.
+ I think she might be fighting a cold or a bit of an ear infection at the moment, though, because sometimes baby girl only wants to nurse laying down together. I didn't nurse Kate like that at all, but Cora already gets easily distracted while she's nursing, so I have to face her away from everything and really convince her to eat even when she's starving, and laying down seems to be the best way to do that.
+ Sleeping: she was consistently doing only one wake-up for the past few weeks, but has started to get up more than once in the middle of the night again and I miss those days. I think we'll probably try to night wean her somewhat soon because I am a cranky mom when I have a little bit older baby and don't get to sleep through the night. On a good night she goes to sleep around 8:30, wakes up around 4:00 to eat and then sleeps til 7:30/8:00. Last night she was up 3 times - ate at 1:00, fussed at 3:30 so I just had David swaddle her and she went back to sleep no problemo, then ate again at 5:00 or so. I'm hoping that stops soon.
+ I think the above sleep problems are because she's going through another growth spurt, which happened with Kate around this age too. Yay! That means she'll get through it soon, let's hope!
+ Naps: She will either nap in the vibrating seat in the basement next to me in the morning from about 10-11, or upstairs in her crib for a bit longer, then a cat nap from 12:30-1:00, then a long nap from about 2-4:30, and then one or two more catnaps before bed, just depending on her mood and when we put her down for the night. During her long nap she consistently wakes up 45 minutes in and is STARVING, no matter how recently I fed her before hand, but then she goes right to sleep again so I'm totes fine with it. (It also guarantees that I get some true alone time because Kate naps or has quiet time from 2-4:00.)
+ This is all fascinating stuff to you, isn't it? I'm mostly writing it down for posterity's sake because I keep looking back at my posts about Kate at this age and wondering if they're going through the same stuff, and I didn't write enough detail back then! So detail-heavy we are.
+ Kate is absolutely LOVING Cora getting more aware and more with-it from day to day. She constantly is looking at her and telling me, "Wook Mama, Cowah smiwing a me! Awww!" I have high hopes for sibling bonding in the future.

I mean, just look at that perfect face! We love you Cowah!

Scenes from a naptime

Naptime around here is a sacred hour (or two). Usually I'm successful at getting Kitty and Cora down at the same time, and I cherish the silence when they're both sleeping and I can get stuff done. Most days I try to read, or get some chore done, or go back to work if I haven't gotten enough done in the morning. I spend some precious moments in the bathroom by myself, without someone shouting or crying, and I have a snack or finish my lunch.

Right now looking out at the backyard it's a frigid wasteland, but I'm envisioning a nice span of grass and a book in my hand out there during naptime in the spring and summer (if the bugs aren't too bad). There's laundry and Cora's 3 month photo prop sitting on the dining room table. I keep remembering to put it away when she's sleeping, and the photos should have been taken on Monday and they still haven't been...

David installed a new-to-us wall oven this weekend, found on Craigslist for a steal of $100. The one that came with our house when we bought it was broken, known to us at time of purchase. We hadn't decided if we were going to redo the kitchen right away so the object of buying a new oven kept slipping further and further back, especially after we had seen the price of new ones. Luckily we happened to check on Craigslist one night and there was an oven! In our price range! One Saturday morning later, he had torn the old one out and put the new one in. It's glorious to have a working oven and once Lent gets over I'm going to be baking all sorts of things!

Welp, enough random rambling for today's naptime.

Postpartum exercise

Notice how I didn't say "postpartum weight loss"...haha.

I've been exercising post-natally for now 6 weeks, doing a combination of Kayla Itsines' BBG (Bikini Body Guide) and running/weights on the off days. (You're technically supposed to do long walks on the "off" days, but I haven't always wanted to just walk so I kind of am doing whatever the heckfire I want, and that gives me a little bit of control and makes me feel like I have some flexibility.)

My runs have been slow and steady and painful. My workouts have been filled with me panting in the basement, trying to catch my breath to do the next exercise. But being active, I've realized, makes me a much happier person to be around. So for that reason alone, I've enjoyed these past 6 weeks a lot. I used to dread exercise, but probably because it's a kid-free hour in my day now, I am seriously enjoying it. The endorphins from finishing a tough workout don't hurt, either - I love feeling accomplished, like I did something hard and I didn't die! look at me go!

my runs have been getting faster, so that's a good thing!
As you might remember, I did a LOT of working out in 2015, starting right about when Kate turned a year old. I did a few different programs in a row: P90X3, Insanity, and then BBG after that. I never did see a ton of progress. Like I've mentioned before, I have hypothyroidism, which prevents me from being able to lose weight easily just because of hormones.  After I got pregnant with Cora, I was determined to not gain as much weight as I had with Kate. Luckily I succeeded, and actual got back to my pre-pregnancy weight within 4 weeks of her birth. So that was a great feeling! I mean, I hadn't gained the same amount of weight and was considerably over my goal weight when we got pregnant, but still. It was nice to be wearing the same size of jeans as before. But I'm not satisfied, not quite yet.

The biggest problem I have with BBG is the ab workouts. I have diastasis recti, at least a self-diagnosed case, and I'm worried every time I do the ab workouts that I'm just making things worse, rather than making them better. I'm thinking of investing in the Mutu System, because my mom-tummy is the most not-in-shape part of me and just rectifying that would be a huge boost to my confidence. (I almost did at the beginning of last year, and then we got pregnant. So I didn't spend the money.) I know Rosie is doing it right now for Lent (such a good idea!) so I can't wait to hear her review. ;)

Although I enjoy the non-weight-loss-benefits of working out, I'm still searching for that magical combination of things that will allow me to lose a few l-b-s. My diet isn't *terrible,* but breastfeeding makes me ravenous practically 24/7 so cutting the amount of food I eat doesn't work. (Plus, the last time I did that my supply had a terrible dip, so I'm not risking that again.) I've been slowly trying to replace my unhealthy snacking with better snacking aka eating Kate's cheese sticks and apples & peanut butter instead of chocolate and cookies.

Anyway, not sure what the point of this post is except for me to complain a little and try to motivate myself to keep going, even if I don't see results. I have to remind myself sometimes that yes, there are goals to working out besides weight loss - happier mood, longer life span, more energy, etc. etc. so maybe this is a part of that.

I'm still gramming if you're curious on a more daily basis how it's going, otherwise catch you on the flip side!